Ahhh!! I cannot take it anymore. Seriously sick and tired of pretending that I am happy and doing well when I am actually not. Everything is just a facade or rather, I have been trying too hard to convince myself and you that everything is fine. But the fact is, I AM NOT!! Hsien Zhuan is breaking down. =(=(=(

I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY and i failed terribly in getting you out of my mind. It is just too miserable trying to do that. Not a single of my day passed, without me thinking of you. You are constantly on my mine and you are my motivation when i am down, apart from Jesus. The thought of you just bring a smile on my face. There are many things that I feel like telling you but I do not know where to begin. I feel so helpless and I am living in agony. Daddy God, please help!!

All I want to tell you is that you have captured my heart and I really really like YOU!!Thank you for your encouragement and messages whenever I am down. Truly appreciate it.

Depression is rooted deep into me. =(=(=(